BreakAway
Posted at 04:28 PM

Galing lang ako sa binyag ni Baby Cheska (anak ni Cai and Ivan) kanina na ginanap sa church of the Infant Jesus near SM Mall of Asia. Sa Gerry's Grill ang reception and it was indeed an event worth celebrating dahil para syang reunion. Ang sarap ng food sa Gerry's Grill actually nasanay kase ako na sisig lang kase palagi ang ino-order dun at first tme kong nag lunch dun ng matino! After a year of not seeing each other nagkita na kami ng kwelang si Gay Pinoy (sa wakas) with her hottie friend and syempre mawawala ba naman ang forever sexy na si Jinggay. Dumating din si Master Glyphed at si Drew and humabol naman sina Belle at ang kanyang significant other na si Ace with baby Agnello. Dumating din si Archie with his wife and super cutie na mga kids
Kwentuhan galore and updates sa mga nangyari sa former account and walang patid na tawanan (asus!).

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And speaking of tawanan 'eto na ang mga pics nung grand birthday celebration ni Pebs last June 10 sa Las pinas (nagiging annual reunion na namin ang birthday ni Pebs (yung naka green) kaya naman isa ito sa mga highly anticipated event ng barkada ko sa Sykes and for that sobrang labs ko'tong babaeng ito, again yung naka green).

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Finally After almost 4 years... eto na yata ang big break na hinihintay ko. Sana ito na talaga ang simula....(cross your fingers)


song of the moment: Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And breakaway


Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway


I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway



pahabol:
Congratulations sa lahat ng nanganak at manganganak at ikakasal (sana lang alam nyo kung ano ang pinasok nyo) at sa mga mapo-promote!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADONIS ESTRADA

Fantastic
Posted at 01:35 PM

Kakagaling ko lang sa Teletech and sinigurado ko ang status ko sa bago kong posisyon. Ok naman ang naging resulta ng pagiging segurista ko. It's confirmed that everything is ok and yung COE ko na lang sa PS ang hinihintay, isang bagay na hindi ko alam kong matatapos ko ba this week. Kainis talaga!!! Pero definitely meron pang ibang paraan... madami! Haaay...stress! (Ito na ang bago kong bestfriend)!

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Napanood nyo ba last Sunday ang SOP Pasiklaband? Astig ng sequence ng performances at ang galante ng GMA at basta na lang namimigay ng 100T Congratulations sa mga nanalo!!!

Kung pinagtyagaan nyo namang tapusin ang GMA Fantastic 56 eh sorry na lang kayo kase boring sya....buti na lang at sa opening number kumanta si Regine! (click nyo na lang 'tong link para mapanood nyo kung gaano kaganda ang asawa ko)

currently feeling: restless
currently listening to: Kwarto by SugarFree and Regine

After All That's Said And Done
Posted at 07:50 PM

It's been almost a month and a half...finally I'm back in business. I can now wholeheartedly say that I am an (drum roll please) ......

...ACE Coach!

(something that i've been wanting to announce since June)

I would like to share the story regarding the entire process on what really transpired for the last month and a half after I left Convergys but no matter how hard I try I can't seem to put the emotion into words. The whole experience was so intense (waiting for the result that is) in fact i'm still overwhelmed by the entire thing. Hearing the HR Manager on the other line asking me to cum over for the job offer last friday was so surreal. I've never prayed this hard since my entrance exam for UST which is more than a decade ago.

It seems as if my year just started. Happy new year to me and belated Happy Birthday!

currently listening to: One Last Cry by Camille Velasco

Dead Dude Walking...The Man In Motion Suddenly Falls On His Knees!
Posted at 06:36 PM

I believe in karma. It has been a driving force in my life for as long as I can remember. I just didn't thought that karma can strike several times in a month and hit you so hard when you least expect it. I did some very bad things....very bad things. Now i'm paying dearly for it...every fucking day of my pathetic life.

There are times when I feel so confident like I own the world, totally carefree....but now is definitely not one of those times. Fuck! I feel so helpless. Vulnerable. I've never been so frustrated in my entire fucked up life!

Why is it hard to ask for help. Why dammit!!!!

Remember that famous Miss Universe question...
"if you were to change one thing(aspect) in your life....what would that be and why?" .
This is one of those most cherished childhood memories of mine...I used to answer that question with so much conviction "I will not change anything because i am what I am now because of my past"... Damn! (how stupid was that?)

Well, this year is the ultimate turning point for me (for my life that is).

Just when I thought that I'm ready to leave everything behind, here it comes....my past hitting me right smack in the face showing me all of the things dirty and shameful about my not-so-immaculate life. I wish that I can just run away. I want to runaway from it all. Runaway from all the bad things in my life though it's pretty obvious that I can't runaway from my own shadow. All of the nightmares I hid inside my closet are now walking the streets alongside my unforgiving shadow. It seems as if i'm living two lives competing against each other. I'm living both my past and my present at the same time. It kills me! How can you fuckin' escape that? It's like riding the train. You take the train for acceleration to literally move away from a certain location to the next the only difference is that you got off the last station only to find yourself back from where you started.

I'm totally crazy right now. God help me.

I'm about to lose it.

currently listening to: Shout by Tears For Fears

What Next?
Posted at 06:51 PM

The Vicious Cycle
Posted at 08:42 PM

It's been raining hard lately. There's water everywhere. These are the times when abundance is so uncalled for. It may be raining hard outside but inside...every household, people are praying harder as a counter attack against one of Gods astounding creations. It's a battlefield alright.

I went back to my own fortress of solitude last Saturday after staying in my hometown for a day only to discover that my kingdom is submerged in absolute squalidness. I'm aching and my stomach is about to explode due to a tremendous amount of acid. I need not mind the pain. Pain is such a dear friend of mine... we go a long way as a matter of fact. It helps divert my attention from stress to committing suicide. Pain. How can you live without it.

I slept through the madness. It's chaos... and its all mine. Morning awaits.

I woke up late and I had sadness for breakfast. I went outside to get a glimpse of Gods grace for inspiration but all I saw was a continuous display of havoc and discomfort. You can only stare at the sky and wonder where'd it go. I'm searching but all my search engines are on sabbatical leave. I tried to smile. Nescafe three-in-one is amazing.

I was made to believe that God made the rain to naturally cleanse the world. The same way our tears function to get rid of unwanted dirt in our eyes. Too bad we can't use cotton buds to sanitize our brains. Cleanse. That's a nice word.

One typhoon after another. It's the trend nowadays. It's the hottest thing in town, its cool. After the storm cums another fuckin' storm...and another...and another until you have nothing left but mud and your ability to kill yourself. You're so exhausted that killing yourself suddenly sounds so gratifying.

I'm not sure if i'll ever have the chance to look back at this moment and laugh. The future is so elusive. Good thing we only have two seasons. I can't imagine how crazy winter will be.

currently listening to: Wait 'til Tomorrow by Silver Chair