Tamadotchi
Posted at 12:09 PM

Tinatamad ako!
Late ako ng 10 minutes!
May e___-___r__e_ ako sa Thursday.
Madami akong dala ngayon sa office kase galing ako ng Rizal kahapon kaya ako na-late ngayon!
Nyeta!

Call Boys Go To Heaven
Posted at 02:17 PM

Finally nakatulog na rin ako sa bago kong apartment. Matagal na akong nakalipat pero kagabi lang talaga ako natulog dun (marahil ay napataas ang kilay nyo noh). Actually dun ako sa room ni Loowee natutulog for the past weeks kasi meron syang aircon pero the past couple of days ay medyo hindi na maganda ang pakiramdam ko kase everytime na gigising ako eh masakit ang katawan ko kaya i decided na lisanin ang kaharian ni Loowee at manatili sa sarili kong dreamland which is sa sarili kong apartment.

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Last night as I lay sleeping

I died or so it seemed

Then I went to heaven But only in my dream.
Up there, St. Peter met me Standing at the pearly
gates

He said "I must check your record.
Please stand here and wait."

He turned and said "your record Is covered with
terrible flaws.
On earth I see you rallied For every losing cause.

I see that you drank alcohol And used drugs too
Fact is you've done everything A good person
should never do.

We can't have people like you up here coz Your
life was full of sin."
Then he read the last of my record, Took my hand
and said
"Come in."

He lead me up to the big boss and said "Take him
in and treat him
well.
He used to work in a call centre. He's done his time
in hell !!!

(This picture has nothing to do with the entry above!)


-got this from KikayTinay via email!

currently listening to: Love Always Finds A Way
currently watching: Sex And The City season 2
currently addicted to: Kidracer-X and Nastypig.com
currently feeling: sadistic and excited for tomorrow's event

Kay Bilis ng Panahon
Posted at 05:13 PM

currently feeling: Happy


Happy Birthday to my bestfriend Mary Louise Beltran Salvador aka Dyosa Mystica/Misty/Jenjen/Deana Fernandez/Mamu.


I will post a new entry on Monday. Until then......


currently feeling: Happier

(This picture has nothing to do with the entry above!)
pahabol:
The event last Thursday was monumental! Way to GO Adonis Estrada!!!

Got this from my yahoo email: http://www.prolife.org.ph/page/homosexuality5
whatchutink?

King of Pain
Posted at 01:43 PM

I have a lot of things on my mind right now (so what else is new?). I think I'm worrying too much. I dunno. Methinks it's depressing to plan for the future ( that is my manic-depressive side talking again). No matter how hard you try to make things work, shit always happens. Everything just blows up right in front of you and you don't even see it cumming. Your mind is filled with tons of positivity that you forgot to leave room for errors. *sigh* I saw this commercial in Jack TV about a program produced by comedy central featuring a stand-up comediene saying that she just discovered the key to life which is "lowered expectations". I don't entirely agree to that however I've always believed in expecting the worst thing that could happen in any given situation. Sad huh....oh well, I also believed in the vicious cycle about sadness and happiness. You may be happy now feeling on top of the world then the next thing you know you're about to jump over a 30-storey building. Now how wicked is that? That's how I feel most of the time. I took this psychological exam last week with a bahala na attitude because my first attempt a month ago was a complete disaster. I fucked up so to speak. My friend took the same test twice and she failed. She warned me about that satanic exam saying that consistency is the rule of the game. The facilitator also informed me that only 9 out of 100 participants passed the fucking test. Now how comforting is that? That exam sucked the life out of me. It's downright traumatic. I swear to never take that exam again. It's absolutely insane. But just when I thought I'm off the hook (as I gracefully enjoy my recuperation)...the same company called me up asking me to take the test again (what happened next was monumental). I'll be taking the same freakin' exam but for a different criteria this time. They said that the first attempt was to figure out if I am fit for sales (shockingly enough I'm not! what's up with that? the fuck with them). The second time is to determine if I'm fit to work. Well what do you know... I passed the fucking test! I don't know how I did it but I'm just glad I passed. I am now waiting for the final result. I hope that it would be a nice transition if ever.

currently feeling: so much it hurts...

The Hero Has Fallen (the me version)
Posted at 09:41 AM

I received a sad news today. I guess you really can't prepare yourself from the bad things. How do you prepare for it anyway? It's inevitable. I prepared myself for the worst thing that could possibly happen ...or so I think I did. I didn't thought that I'd be affected this much. I can't even describe what I'm feeling right now.... I hate to say it but... I lost the battle. I don't have to feel so bad about it.... but I'm really hurt.

I don't hate myself... why should I? (but due to recent unfortunate events....i'd like to consider the thought...)

currently feeling: hurt
currently listening to: I Wouldn't Beg For Water by Regine

Recuperating
Posted at 06:11 PM



Cannot blog so I'll just post this symbol. (i miss this cartoon) Tell you guys more tomorrow.

No comments for now.


currently listening to: Anytime You Need A Friend by Mariah


pahabol:
Anniversary pala ng Martial Law today...so what does this day mean to you guys? hmmm....

Introspection
Posted at 06:05 PM

OUTSIDE LOOKING IN

I'm a good person. I know I am. I'm moody at times but really I am probably the last guy to think badly of others. Sometimes I wonder what other people think or say about me not because I care but I think it's just interesting and at the same time refreshing to learn something about yourself from the point of view of others. Perhaps they think that I'm this mean, self-righteous, self-centered, all-knowing jerk .. I dunno but actually most of the time all I think about is what I will eat for lunch or when will Regine Velasquez launch her next album. Honestly I don't really care about what other people think whether towards me or anything. I just don't. Lately I am faced with this dilemma that maybe I am a bad person. Maybe I am the only one who thinks that i am good. Who am I to say anyway. We live in a generation where everything is relative. What's good for me may not necessarily be good for you. Since I don't have the faintest idea about others' concept of good I guess it would be pointless to even bother. In the end what matters is what you think about yourself. I remember this question (answerable by strongly agree or disagree) from that freakin' psychological test from a couple of weeks back that goes something like... "if you love yourself others will love you as well". FREAK!

Guys you don't have to read this entry...I'm basically talking to myself.

I think i've asked this question before but i'd like to post it again...

Is man by nature good or evil?

What do you think? I want you guys to think this over and make sure to use yourself as an example.

Methinks that man is by nature evil. If man by nature is good, why is it that we have to exert a great deal of effort to be one?
You need not exert any effort (doing something good or being good for that matter) if it's already your nature to begin with.
Makes sense? Well how about you? What do you think?

currently feeling: in pain due to toothache
currently listening to: Hand In My Pocket by Alanis Morissete
currently addicted to: yahoo music launch

Resilience
Posted at 11:09 AM

It's final. The mother ship's headed towards this direction most agents dare not go. The bureaucracy decided to implement new policies without consensus. Systems without logic, policies that are highly questionable and morally challenged bishops are just some of the many things that made me decide to abandon my post as a sodier of fortune in this empire ruled by greed. I realized that i'm just a pawn exploited by these mercenaries. I will not succumb to this evil. I will not.
I've always been optimistic about change. Change is inevitable. Is there something we can do to prevent change? It's a fact as old as time itself. Culture will wither if it resists the challenge of change. Fortunately we Filipinos have our own armor or should I say weapon against this bio hazard. Resilience. Apparently my body is reluctant to resilience so help me God.
I'm still having a difficult time accepting this paradigm shift. My superior told me to take it as a challenge. My spirit is weak and hearing this from my supervisor made my soul all the more melancholy to the point of insanity.
I tried to convince myself that everything is ok when in fact it's not. It sucks to be on the waiting list. I want to go away. Runaway. But I've got nowhere else to go.

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder what are we fighting for
When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder is there anything
I'm going to miss
I wonder how it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there's no one there to talk to
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like the hammock by the
Doorway we spent time in swings empty
Don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me
I wonder how's it going to be
When it goes down
How's it going to be
When you're not around
How's it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
And how's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
And how's it going to be
Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion oblivion
How's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
How's it going to be

currently listening to: Real World by Matchbox 20

Smile For Sale
Posted at 02:24 PM

Everything has a price.
EVERYTHING.
My smile included.
Apparently I am not for sale. I am not affordable.

currently feeling: cheated
currently listening to: Bright Lights by Matchbox20

What's Forever For?
Posted at 11:27 AM

I'm happy today despite all the bad things around me. I'm happy because Jinggay is back. I'm happy because it's Dianne's birthday. I'm happy because it's Sunday. I'm happy today. How I wish happiness lasts forever.....

......but then again there's no such thing as forever.

(This picture was taken last year on Dianne's birthday!)


pahabol:
Happy birthday to Dianne Arguillo!

currently feeling: excruciatingly happy and nauseous?
currently listening to: Listen To your Heart by D.H.T.

Homeward Bound
Posted at 04:26 PM

Dianne's birthday Sunday night was fun. It was a thrill seeing Lee singing Touch by Touch Iba ka Lee!!! Grabe nakakasira talaga ng boses ang beer. Muntik ko ng hindi maabot ang I'll Be na syang winning piece ko tuwing may party. Kainis 98 lang ang score ko! Wala kaming ginawa kungdi kumanta ng kumanta. Ito na siguro ang pinakamatagal kong pagvi-videoke. I usually do only 5-6 songs pero last Sunday I lost count after singing Barry Manilow's Ready To Take A Chance Again but it was really a blast! I had fun! I will always look forward to this date. See you guys next year!!!
*whew*
Kahit medyo napagod ako sa kakakanta, I'm happy kasi I'm with the company of good people. Konti lang kami pero walang awkward feeling (walang sudden feeling of wetness ang drama) Kanta kung kanta at take note lahat kami ay may sipon pa ng lagay na 'yon! Nandoon si Ces, Lem, Makoy, Chiqui, Lee, Ado and Jinggay (na humabol na lang). Sumunod daw sina Derek at Tetay pero di na namin sila naabutan kase kailangan na naming umalis ni Jinggay at may pasok pa sya that night ako naman eh uuwi ng Rizal. May nakakatawa pang nangyari nung pasakay na kami ng taxi ni Jinggay. Actually scary sya para kay Jinggay pero I find it exciting! (what a rush)
*sigh*
Totoo nga na mas lalo mong pahahalagahan ang isang bagay kapag wala na ito sa'yo kase noong umuwi ako ng Rizal sobrang sarap ng pakiramdam. Para akong isang balik-bayan. Namiss ko ng sobra ang family ko.

Random Thought:

I never say "I love you" to my parents as well as to my siblings. It's not that I don't want to it's just that i can't. I don't know why.




Speaking of Videoke why don't you check these guys out and tell me what you think!

Contestant 1

Contestant 2

Contestant 3

ENJOY!


pahabol:

In behalf of the entire Regine Community I would like to say thank you to AngelChuchay for the link to the Ang Marino Bow concert!

Celebration
Posted at 07:06 PM

Here are some pics taken from last Sundays event. Happiness!

(From left to right: Jinggay, Dianne and Adonis Estrada!)


(From left to right: Lemon, Makoy, Dianne, Ces, Adonis, Chiqui, Lee and Mike!)
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Here is another moment to celebrate. Congratulations to Precious Lara Quigaman.

Miss International 2005.

currently feeling: exhausted